French Connection

French Connection.

Happy Halloween

Murdered by my BFF while shopping; was able to get a shot of the ending result in her needless action over the last pair of shoes we both wanted on a shelf in a store. thank goodness I am only a avatar I love her too much to see her go to prison!
I Lubs ma Nimmers!

All or nuthing!

Every met someone that will do anything to claw their way to the top? Ever known anyone who makes everything about them and not you? Ever know anyone who will watch as another person rips you apart and not say a word?

I know a few of all these treasures I could live with teaching a valuable lesson to.
And yet they all still remain the gem of someone else eye while I have watch innocent folks stand and be shit all over while being used to get to the top, or piss on everyone else time to shine and those that have even stood and watched as someone get publicly humiliated.

Justice isn't for people like me. Because I'm a giver, not a taker. even as I write this entry I'm sure I will have to answer for guilty consciences of those who are curious if they too fit my description's.....

Truth is we all do. Yes even I. But what makes me different is that I stopped doing that sort of political maneuvering in grade school and others carry such maneuvers well into their old age.

Should I ever muster enough courage to face those who piss me off? Make me feel so unqualified to measure up to their high standards? Someday maybe....untill then I will continue on my way as a girl who feels pinned in a coner or watch as others get the same treatments as I. Shrugging as to say, "it happens to us all....."

Fall!

Playing with fall looks.

Uprising!

Tapping into my warrior/tank girl/grunge/nerdy potentials! Listens quit frequently to the song "uprising" by Muse. One of my fav groups. Feels good to kick in a wall or punch something once in a while.....might be tapping into my male side a lil too much to.
OH did I tell you how much i love the movie "Beowolf"? I do! (puffs up chest and smirks)

Shoes:[LeeZu!] Couture Dresses Gowns Fashion Accessories Shoes Skins, To The Nines (133, 129, 23)
Socks:MiaSnow Myriam, MIASNOW Main Store, Mirrordeep (9, 189, 116)
Tatt's:++ Skin Deep ++, +Skin Deep:+ +Little Pricks+ Mainstore, Huntress (62, 35, 23)
Skirt:Vally Rumble, Greenland Commercial Plot - Class 5 - Gorgeous , Blue City (30, 170, 25)
Tee:The Rumors, The Rumor - Have you heard..., The Rumor (183, 181, 31)
Hair:Helyanwe Vindaloo, ploom, ploom (199, 128, 26)
Hat:beanster Potato, .:Ducknipple:. Mainstore, Ducknipple (211, 161, 23)
Weapon:Furia Freeloader, Planet of Taris / Furious Star Wars Avatars, The Outer Rim (153, 179, 75)
Skin:!!!.::Mother Goose's::.
Bangles:Armidi, ARMIDI - Hair, Clothing, & Accessories - SHOPARMIDI.COM ONLINE, Armidi (136, 128, 26)

Lost in translation?

Moving forward I'm doing all I can to feel myself in different elements.... I love playing with lighting and exploring the things I take for granted: Lighting, on location, using different filters and so on.

I was inspired by a dear friend ....Shout out: Jayson to explore the sim China
so of course there I feel this creative vibe and since of flipping a switch to raw inspirations. Great place go now...Really TP there right this moment its amazing!

~~~~~~~China, China (187, 57, 1994~~~~~~~~~

"Not Exactly"

This is my best attempt at being a model for you!

So like I'm all about right now braking down my walls of style and security. When you get comfy with something usually means your either getting lazy or losing touch with your own edge....Great line from one of my favorite movies....."The Sleeper has awaken!!!" Dune... movie rocked! Still to this day get chills when he has his hand in that box and she puts that venom filled needle finger thingy to his throat....(looks down...) "I'm doing it again aren't I....Rambling like a nerd.....surry"

Moving on! This out fit was inspired by the 80's for me.
Hair: PurpleMoon Creations . Ethere, Etherea (109, 76, 1366)
Jacket:BAIASTICE, BAIASTICE (152, 126, 25)
Skirt:BAIASTICE, BAIASTICE (152, 126, 25)
Skin: ::: unBra ::: Skins,Shapes,Fashion,Makeup
Photography: Me duh ma page!jk

Creature of Habit

I'm avoiding a great deal of things lately....moving like a machine. I'm taking a leap forward I don't want to do. So I'm avoiding all the things that make me think and feel the fear. I do this every time I am dealing with something large.

"Is that a large elephant in the center of the room?!?.....Hmmm? No! I see....nothing!" (starts biting her lip)

You know what I need? I need a list of things to do to keep my busy! (lol) So I can absorb myself that much further into ignorance! (takes in a deep breath...letting it out softly)

Here is the thing, last night she spoke to me in a dream......we actually talked. This person I do not dare mention..... We talked and we spoke of life. She made me promise to take a leap of faith and let her go. To envision myself standing on a high bridge overlooking clear, moving water below.

Letting her go.....letting her go. (takes a moment to collect her thoughts.....)how many times have I tried to do that? I have lost trac of the exact number honestly.
And according to this apparition, it is as easy as it's forming of the words. (thinks for a moment) leap of faith hu?

(closes her eyes and takes a step forward off the bridge and holds her breath as she leans forward..............)

Consider This!

Did you know that just around the corner is "Breast Cancer Awareness" month? Well it is and I for one am a huge advocate of this time of the year.

I had a huge scare 2007 when I went in for an exam and they found a lump. I sat in a room scared. Wondering what was life about to hand me. I was sent home and later that day received results that were good news.

It woke me up that day; that I need to support and be more of an advocate for my family and friends. Not to mention my own health!

Please, please. Don't put off your right to live and be free of the simple knowledge you, me, we all have the power to be supportive to the power of PINK!

The Craft

So a friend of mine stops in and wants some pics done. As you can see this is a few of what we managed to creat. What a beautiful girl. I always enjoy her and ALAWAYS manage to bit my lip waiting for her reaction's.
The thing about this job is you never know; you never realy know till the whole thing comes together how it will make a person react. I always can see it in my head and sometimes its so frustrating to mold it to how you know it will make the most amazing thing.
I respect those who use all the natural elements to creat a pic. But I also know the amazing amount of time and creativity it takes to mold a pic with the tools I use. Neither is easy, and neither should be shund. Tis a piece of art created in a still.
And I know that it's NEVER a craft that is ever mastered or done learning from.
I love what I do, I love the exspression's......been a long time since I felt the love agian. Crosses her fingers for a more respectful merger......

Long ackward pause........

Where have you been? umm, well everywhere and allot of nowhere. Sorry for the laps in time I have no valid reason for the absence. Just been busy. SO I have been taking pics though and having fun with them. This is one I took today at a beautiful structure who's name now escapes me and I would log into SL but that's a whole other story so moving on!
Yep I come to this place often to unwind and just investigate the over all structure because it is special to me.
When I was a girl, I loved going to my church because it was so large and it was simply breath taking to lean back in my seat and wonder off to another place and look up at the ceilings. So in a since this pick inspired me of the girl I once was looking up at this pic I am sure I imagined a thousand times in my youth staring back at me!(sparky waves to the lil girl she once was)

Matoo Mermaid

I seriously woke this morning and had like 20 new ideas for pics.....What is that? I mean I seriously go for weeks on end with nuthin in my head ( o.O hush!) and Bam!!! I cant stop writing too! I am like a flippin chatter box just spilling over...(take a moment to visualize a chatter box spilling over......***crickets****)
errrr anybum! So this is a inspiration I had. I was working on some different ideas because I let music inspire me mostly, and I literally was doing another pic when this image flashed in ma head!
She introduced herself to me as "Matoo" she is a mermaid and is on a mission to deliver bad news to her king!
See told ya!(taps her skull) its all trapped up here!
I like her allot, she has this persona about her when you look long enough you can almost see the story line unfolding. Or not, maybe I'm just slowly slipping into what my mom loving refers to as a "Slow Cook" meaning my brain is slowly cooking into a nice hot crazy.... Yeah I know it's the love you keep around you that defines you right?

"CHAOS!!"

So some pretty tight threads in this setup right!?!?! Because they are designed and created by none other than "Chaos By Design"! Not only am I a huge fan of the store's clothing and the looks they create, I'm also very, very lucky to know them personally as well...(beams) so that makes me a true fan!
So check this out I love this look because It's full out Neko for me, Yeah I know I could go way deeper but then it would take so much away from the coolness of just the outfit itself. And sometimes less is way more to me.
This outfit powers me up for anything, Anytime I feel a lil low, high or can't find the right way to express myself I grab my Neko-ness and pile on the power. I always know when I get something off the shelf from their store I'm gonna feel empowered and ready to roll for whatever comes at me.
And lets face it this week I need all the power I can get with RL challenges. I have a lil crush on this person right now and its been a all day challenge to not let my mind wonder endlessly at the possibilities. But with that said I also weigh in that I am a "sensitive" person who loves love and loves expression, So I have to cool my heels and let nature take its course. Trust me nothing would make me happier than to lose myself in them and just stay lost! Oh Gosh, lol I'm wondering. BUT! uhhhhhh CONTROL! maintain control!!! ANYWHO!!! Happy/Healthy/Loved/Inspired the well balanced diet of a Sparky doll!
As Seen Above:
Boots: Chaos by Design Rave boots-White W/colored nails
Pants: Chaos by Design Baggies-Black W/belt
Tee: Chaos by Design Rave Tee-Black W/Color
Bracelets: Kookie Spangle Mixed
Hair: rQ-Coy White&Noir
Scarf: myself-Kufiya-Yellow
Eyes: Miasnow-Glossy Rainbow
Skin: Curio: Acorn-Elf Frex (light) Elf-Holly

Happy Camper

So this weekend I decided to produce a camper look. Why? I have no clue other than
to say certain things ........ Class? .....INSPIRE ME...yep!Very Good! XD Any who! I got busy right away on some ideal places I wanted to visit and of course one of my stops was at the beautifully done store "Kookie" This store is off the hook amazing! It has some great key note items to make an out fit the perfect construction.
So with the purchase of the high leather laced boot; I began to create the perfect Happy Camper outfit!

At some point I'm going to incorporate my ideas into the setting best fit for the outfit sorry! Until then; close your eyes and imagine yourself in the Arizona Foothills (also one of my fav fashion mags in RL) Relaxing with smores and a open fire, few friends and the stars to set the mood! Maybe then you can see this out fit making our girl Sparky Doll the Happy Camper!

As Seen Above:
Jacket: LeLutka-Adeleide
Tee-Shirt: *FakE* Haida Tunis Tank-Sun
Jeans: *Fishy Strawberry* Equinox Jeans-Stone
Shoes:*Kookie* Armarda Boot Neutral
Bracelet: *Kookie* Spangle Mixed
Hair: Posh;Morning After;Brunettes
Skin: Iconic;Lyama2

Brave New World!

I'm investing allot of creative freedom I didn't realize I had. This has become more therapeutic than I realized. Recently I have noticed a great deal of fashion blooming from when I first entered Second Life. Which only means Creators are getting smarter, more fantastic in their craft and most importantly more aware of how the avatar moves and collects its looks.
Now this isn't really good news for me in the since I am spending a great deal more money on the crave for fashion forward wear :) So I had to force myself to create a bankroll again and get up off my lazy ass and start shooting models and anyone who is willing to pay me for photography work. So in a since fashion is at fault for me becoming creative again.......(heavy sigh) the things I will do for a pair of Moody Shoes! I tell you I will stop at no point! (wow that's in print now)
in the words of my fav band Muse :
"They will not force us, They will stop degrading us, They will not control us......We will be victorious!!"

Looking forward and never over my shoulder, I walk the streets of Second Life with camera in hand searching for perspective and the golden ticket that's hiding within every frame I shoot.
With that said I'm off to the word that never sleeps! (checks her film. Adjusting her lens. Tossing all her gear in her back pack and slings it over her shoulder. Puts her earphones on starting her Muse music.......Stops to check her torn jean pockets for her lighter and a cigarette. Lighting her cigarette she winks at you and walks off down the city street)

Isn't She..........Pretty In Pink

Today is a better day. I have this dear friend who has the sweetest lil girl. She had cancer and the type she has is always on stand by to return.
To my knowledge, she is completely at this moment free of the monster that steals her childhood slowly and keeps her from living anything but normal life. I also have a lil girl around her age and it has inspired me deeply to focus more on, not what I don't have but what I do have!
How could I be foolishly looking to things that keep me sad and less happy?
This lil darling she never loses hope; She is a blessing and it's such a crime to see her suffer. But I want to believe in my heart that there is a answer for why this beautiful girl who will grow up to be an even more stunningly beautiful, inside and out adult with a full rich life, is forced to walk this dark path.
Mind you I don't have a god fearing since nor do I shun it. (god talk alert!) As I write this entry I listen to Internet radio and freakishly "One of us" begins to play! Spooky 0.0

ANYWAY! Hey I ramble sorry. So I found this really pretty out fit, thinking of my good friends daughter (who's name is Faith) and I wanted to share it with
you because it inspires me. For those who have lost the war of Cancer or like me have not only lost but also still battle daily...... After all this blog is about me and inspirational looks I give Sparky. :P

As seen above:
Dress: Fishy Strawberry - Cuddle Maxipull (pink)
Shoes: Moody (of course) Bare-Ginger-Bare
Hair: .+*Stat*+.Black [MS]
Skin: Icon-Lyma
Eyes:MiaSnow-Glossy-Teal

Rainy_Day :(

Its be miserable day in RL this side of where i live. On days like this I don't feel very inspired to do much of anything but listen to music to help pull me out of gloom. So I didn't buy anything in SL today but I did travel to some really cool places. I went to this really great art gallery in world that had amazingly cool sculptures. Did I mention I am a photographer in Second Life? I am. Well I was, then I took time off and then it has been uninspiring since (why you ask?) relationships...... I am not a person who does well at them and on days like this it puts me in a even deeper than normal depression for my lack of self worth.
How do I do that, Put myself worth based on the person who least likes me? May have something to do with only being a strong as your weakest link. My weakest was once a great friend to me. Shared allot of personal (RL) information with. Fell in love with.
Fell lost inside of. I lost myself i fell so deep.......Now I'm nothing to them, I'm less than the worn out piece of gum that lay stuck in place on the street the cars drive over and past
to get where they are going.... not me. I'm stuck here in this place. Sure to ask them, I left, I came bake ..... time and time again. I don't look to them for blame but I do look to them for reasons i cant explain. So I am lost in this moment in this room, listening to the
rain reflecting on pain, and an abundance of it seems to riddle me with doubt of worth.
I have finalized all my feelings with anger and resentment. but there is this light inside me i can not put out. Why does it torment me?
Outfits seem worthless to me today. life as I know it seems colorless........ today is a dark and cold day. I feel as alone inside as I am
outside. If anyone cares.....

Hello my Avatar name in Second Life is Spartin Parx. My close friends
have all sorts of nicknames for me: Sparks❤Sparky❤Spanks❤Sparkles…..and
god only knows what else (lol) anyway. I started this blog-a-boo because I
always take forever to dress, I always love to buy what’s hot to me. I’m certain
it’s not always conventional or the hottest thing but if you like reading and following along just it’s a “win” fur both!

As seen above in pic’s for today’s Sparky Doll look:
Gloves by: LBN Mina Gloves
Undershirt/paints: Cybernetic doll netting
Black Shawl by Gawk
Black Coral Tear Drop gold/silver Threader Earrings by Gems & kisses Main store
Shirt: >>>moloko<<<< Skull Top Camo Red
Hair:[LeLutka] Pony Up/Dark_fair
Hat:Last Eden Flippin the bone(red band)
Eyes: MIASNOW Eyes-Glossy Icy
Shape: Spartin Parx personal collection
Pants: REBEL shorts pant Karo 1 Women
Shoes:[BBD]Alice Heels
Skin: .:ICONIC:. Belliana;Desiderio B.H Pale